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cportwine
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Posted: 6 December 2008 04:38 am |
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Ok, I am a nut case, most of you on here know that already.
But, I found I wasn't that bad until I did this weight loss thing. Now, I totally freak about every little pound, up or down, it doesn't matter. I get all worked up.
With that I also get all these feelings. Like if my weight is up, I get really down on myself and everything else around me seems bad.
Just the opposite when my weight is down.
Then after I go through all that, I wonder, am I crazy, or is everyone like this.
So, please share your ups and downs. Also, share what it has been like (emotionally) for you while losing weight.
Last edited on 6 December 2008 04:38 am by cportwine
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CrimsonAnimus
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Posted: 6 December 2008 05:46 pm |
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It's easy to focus on that number. I have such large scale fluctuations, which I really let mess with my head.
I think we focus so hard on losing weight, and work so hard, that the number we see on the scale dominates it, because it's the end result of what we are working so hard to do. Well, it's only one result of many.
Just take a look at all the other things you have accomplished, all the other ways in which your life have improved, far and above that number. It's hard to do, but we need to shift our focus to other things in life. Our health, even, is very important, but so is enjoying life. I'm still working on finding that balance, too.
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Sassykat
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Posted: 6 December 2008 08:00 pm |
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Yes. This is another reason I am suppose to be taking a break from this forum. Nick is right we need balance and we also need to look at the big picuture of how we are doing.
I'm like you Cport...Just one pound can make me go nuts. If it's one pound up, I'm not happy and can feel a little discouraged. One pound down and I'm really happy. And since I've been doing the JUDDD or Alternate Day Diet, I can have 2 pound fluctuations from one day to the next. That's a big fluctuation for me and it's making me bonkers.
This question can be answered on very many different leves also, like the sense of accomplishment when we make our goals for the day.
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cportwine
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Posted: 7 December 2008 04:01 am |
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OH, you said it.... I have huge differences in my weight from day to day, and it makes me nuts. That is kind of why I did this post.
I spent one whole day in total depression, cause my weight had went up so much. But, then as the day went on, my weight went down. It's just all so confusing at times.
I really think, that at times it makes me crazy, and I do stupid things because of it. Like exercise a whole lot, or starve myself, etc. You get the picture....
Another, reason for my post. I guess I just need to feel that I am not the only one this happens too.
Sometimes I think the scale is just what you said, Nick, it just a number. A number that makes us all insane.
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 7 December 2008 03:11 pm |
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Oh no! Cindy opened a can of worms.
I'm going through weight related major freak mode right now and I haven't even "gained" weight. It's because I haven't lost any! It's ridiculous, a number shouldn't mean that much to me, but it really does. And this just doesn't stop at weight. My house has to be perfectly clean. If I'm not losing major pounds and my house isn't in the top ten for cleanest houses in America my life is in panic mode. Why? I don't know, but the stress is killing me! I really need to chill (the sad part being I know this, but still continue to stress.)
No worries, you're not the only one. In fact I think taking control of my life and losing weight has made me a control freak.
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BJD74
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Posted: 11 December 2008 08:27 pm |
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LOL you guys got nothing on me! i am the obsessive compulsive cleaner, mother, wife and worrier. i cant let the house get unclean and imagine how that is with 3 rowdy dogs that love to be outside in the grass, dirt etc and then come back in and tromp all over the couches and bed. I obsess over my daughter ( WHO IS 3) letting her room get messy. Messy to me is crayons and coloring books all disarayed around the floor. NOTHING. But I get all in an uproar and lecture about cleaning! as for the weight, i jump on that scale daily, if not every few hours to see if it changes. I am trying not to live by the number, but alas, yesterday I was DOWN to 188 and I couldve had a party. Today, well, its back up to 190. So, was it down, am i losing, or did i eat too much salt yesterday...will it go back down by my Saturday weigh in that really gets logged in the progress chart I maintain? My mind never lets it lie. As for the other areas of my life, I used to try to be in control of all around me, but had to let that go. I tried for so long to please everyone around me, and never stopped running..but once i got married i had to let some of that go. I still obsess over my parents life, how unhappy they are because of what my oldest brother is going thru...he put himself into the position, dont feel sorry for him. FYI
my head is my worst enemy. the scale comes a close 2nd but my head is and always will be #1. HOW DO I OVERCOME THAT? my fear is if i actually reach, or rather, when i actually reach my goal weight...will i see myself different? will i be different? or is this just my excuse to be unhappy for life? if i get there, when i get there, will i simply find something else that makes me stresss?????
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BJD74
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Posted: 11 December 2008 08:28 pm |
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ps...mrs cportwine..i love your hair! you look great! 
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cportwine
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Posted: 11 December 2008 09:10 pm |
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BJD74 wrote: ps...mrs cportwine..i love your hair! you look great!
Thanks, but the hair is becoming a pain, and I still think I look better with shorter hair. But, I will let it go for now, cause I don't have the money to get it done with christmas and all.
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BJD74
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Posted: 12 December 2008 05:15 pm |
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i tend to let my hair grow without the regular trims, and then i get an itch cuz its fried on the ends and go get a trim...and end up losing all the length i had!! i just did it again back in november. i am going to go here next week and try to get her trimmed again as my salon lady advised. Every 6 weeks.
i have shoulder length brown/burgundy with some greys in there and its curly like a fat roller perm. it is natural, and it is curliest when short. i love the chin length bob, but well, its past that and now i see yours and wish my hair was that long. that is the length i have never had my hair to. I would like to see if my long layers could make it to that length, because its there just shorter right now. Time, which is the hardest. Some days I want it super short, like a pixie, cuz its cute...like old meg ryan in French Kiss..but its so "butchy" when its that short and i like having the feminine in my hair if nothing else. I used to do coloring, but who has the time or money, and my greys distinguish me somehow, so i am ok with that. i just want it to be healthy. i have such thick coarse hair that it gets dry on the ends so fast, and i dont dry it or curl it or do anything except wash, brush then put on some mousse or curly holding stuff. I guess I have good hair, but its always better on the other side of the fence!!! I think D would like my hair like yours, as he is into the feathery 80's farrah fawcett style, and he is trying to grow his out as well. He even has a pig tail, that admittedly is pretty cute, esp when he is under the suburban working his mechanic magic....but his tail is now bigger than mine!!!!!! WAAAHHHHHH
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cportwine
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Posted: 12 December 2008 07:30 pm |
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| That's the thing, I have always had layers and now it's growing out. I don't know what the heck to do with it. So, I just curl it with the big iron and hope for the best.
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BJD74
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Posted: 12 December 2008 09:02 pm |
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now see if i were to curl mine or blow it dry regularly, well it would be sooo dry! we live in the high dry desert, so that on top of the coarseness leads me to easily dry ends. besides that i so dont have the patience for drying and curling...! aaghhh!! too much hair to curl!!! i do have the old style rollers that you wear to bed, i do love to do that, but since i dont work anymore i havent really done it. Now with the layers my hair is already very wavy and its a great cut, so i am kinda happy with my hair now! :) i love the classy marilyn monroe and hepburn styles too, i am all about the glamourous looks. 
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cportwine
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Posted: 12 December 2008 09:39 pm |
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| I usually just let my dry on its own, and with the big curler it don't take to long to do. But, it was much easier to do when I kept it short and permed. But, that look is out of style now... I don't remember if this was in this post or not. But, you had said something, about the Farrah facet hair do. lol, I had that cut in the 80's...
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Butterfly_Hourglass
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Posted: 14 December 2008 04:41 am |
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Usually, I try not to get too down on myself when I gain. The bad thing is, I try to. Actually, I fail and go for the cummy food in the house.
But, when I loose weight, I feel amazing. It makes me feel all tingly and happy and accomplished.
The worst thing is, my body doesn't seem to like to show what other people see!
For example, my friends said I had lost weight. Now, this is awkward and flattering in an of itself, BUT I wanted to scream! I am the exact same wight I was last year, and my measurements havn't changed in ages. X.x How is that possible, I ask?
Okay, maybe I don't mesuare accuratly enough of something, but this is just really getting to me!
Plus, the worst time is when I'm at 140. Boarderline on 139 (I don't remember ever being in the 130's...like, ever. It's my goal), and then my weight leeps up back to 145.
WHY?!
Gah. Anyway, I had to vent a bit. See, you're not the only one that gets worked about the pounds Cport.
-hug-
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BJD74
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Posted: 15 December 2008 07:40 pm |
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last friday blew my entire week out of the water, but this is Monday. It is snowing, we are housebound for the moment, waiting for faxes and documents to sign blah blah blah....but we are moving foward in a positive direction with the refinance. Perhaps it took my bottoming out and freaking out and having a temper tantrum to finally get things moving in that direction...(AAH THE SACRIFICES WE MAKE ....ha ha ha soooo not funny!! )
My emotions have got to relax. I cannot continue to do this to myself. At this point, I am up but I am still below my high school weight, so I am not upset. Sure, I would like to get back to the 188-189 i was at for a WHOLE MINUTE..last week, but alas, its holidays and the good foods are all around so maybe I need to lighten up per se; for a second and just survive the stress of the holidays without worrying about what I eat. I dont know if I sound nuts, but I tell myself I have to get to grips with something or I will make myself nuts and never reach the goals. (wait, what are the goals again?)
I felt the emotions bad this last few days, not depressed just strained mentally over the money situation. I didnt run from the cookies or the posole or the dinner choice last nite. I was going to make a chef salad, but in sharing the ideas my hubby wasnt thrilled...and i understand that, cuz neither was i? I had some mozzerella cheese from making homemade pizza over a month ago..and i got the idea to make a pizza last nite. It was delicious. I made it on a rectangle pan, with tomato paste and seasonings, then mozerella and fresh garlic. We kept it simple. It was delicious. I cut it into 1.5in by 1.5in squares and I ate 6 squares total and nothing else. That would be the size of 1 slice in a restaurant, so I tell myself i did ok. What do you guys think???? Am I fooling myself in that logic?????
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cportwine
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Posted: 15 December 2008 09:58 pm |
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I really think my mental problem is with the scale. The last few days I have not weighed in and it feels great not to have that pressure. It also, doesn't affect my eating. So, say I have a bad weigh in. I either eat cause it depressed me or I don't eat in order to have a better weigh in the next day.
So, having that monkey off my back right now, has really helped me. But, I am sure I will be back at it tomorrow. lol So, we will see how that affects my judgement.
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VegaObscura
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Posted: 16 December 2008 08:27 am |
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cportwine wrote: It also, doesn't affect my eating.
cportwine wrote: off my back right now, has really helped me.
I was about to let the first one go, then when I saw there were two in one post I just couldn't take it.
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