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mollymoo24
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Posted: 13 May 2009 04:32 pm |
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góðan dag
Hi all (waves). 
I have missed you guys. 
First, a quick important business announcement: **We are not going to talk here about what happened to my old journal. PM's are fine if you have any questions .** Thanks.
Boy oh boy do I need some kind of calorie confessional. I've been totally chowing the calories for the past week or so. I've been exercising too, but not to the extend that I am effectively burning off 1500+ extra calories per day. Mostly it is coming from late night binging, combined with an unsual craving for sugar - chocolate, and assorted scones and Starbucks goodies.
My hormones were definitely messing with me last week, and I've been doing a lot of comfort eating. Need to get back on track. Today: standard brekkie; tuna w/tomato for lunch, and leftover chicken kabob wrap for dinner. And a nice long run if my leg will let me.
I am sitting here on a Tuesday morning with my large mug of Starbucks, on my couch, working from home. I am staying local because C-Dog is ill and went into the doggie hospital yesterday. I will be able to get an update and visit him around lunch time.
Consequently, I spent last night alone, all alone in this house, and thinking about being alone in life, and all that has been lost in recent months was pretty tough. Who has, and who hasn't, expressed concern and support over C-Dog is very telling. About them, and about me, and who really is important in my life.
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Hisgal
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Posted: 13 May 2009 05:18 pm |
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Hi Mol! *BIG GLAD TO 'SEE' YOU WAVE*
So, how is C-dog? It's nothing really serious, is it? I think it's so scary when your pet is sick...........they can't tell you that anything is wrong, or tell the vet what hurts, etc. In our household, those 3 cats are just about like having our kids around. We love them, and they are very much a part of the family! I hope all goes well for C-dog!
Our youngest, Sprite (whose mug-shot graces my diary entries), has been sneezing a lot. I think it's just allergies..........as she seems to do it mostly in spring and fall, and a bit again when we start up our wood furnace........but at times I wonder if it's anything more serious, like an upper respiratory infection. We need to get her in to be spayed (I cringe at the thought of the cost, with the hubs still not working) but I worry if her sneezing/upper respiratory stuff will make the surgery/anesthesia unsafe for her to have? Just like worrying about our kids!
Let us know how it's going. Any idea how long he has to be there?
BTW............hormones are messing with me as we "speak" Blasted hormones!
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CrimsonAnimus
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Posted: 13 May 2009 05:32 pm |
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Glad to see you back, Mol.
I hope C-Dog gets better! My dog has been under the weather, too. We're thinking it's allergies, and I hope that's all it is. We won't know until we have the money to take her to the vet.
Stay focused!
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50lbs2lose
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Posted: 13 May 2009 07:26 pm |
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Yay! Glad you're back!
Talk about hormones! Wow zee wow! I'm thinking about peanut butter in every flavor of ice cream you can imagine! Had some in cherry vanilla just now. I'm due to start on friday it can't come too soon in my book.
I have managed to keep my erasor handy though for those slip ups. Burned 300 on lower body squat,lunges, dead lifts and 15 minutes rebounding.
I found a new exercise I thought I would try , but who am I kidding!;
2minutes of jumping jacks, 25 lunges(each leg), 50 squats, 15 burpees, 15 squat thrusts. Rest for 2 min and repeat twice! Ya know how many times I made it rhrewvthe whole exercise? Not even once! Who can do that? I guess I'll keep working at it.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 13 May 2009 11:43 pm |
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Eraserhead
50lbs2lose wrote:
I have managed to keep my erasor handy though for those slip ups.
Great Cyndy! Exercise erases mistakes!!! Nicely done.  I am going to need a bigger eraser for myself, I fear.
Today: 1153IN/Net so far. Would like to get in my toning later after I get back from visiting C-Dog. [L will be coming to see him also.] My weight is presently at 126, which is up a pound from last week. My goal for the current Challenge (ending July 4) is 121. Here's my most recent ticker from the start of the Challenge, I am too lazy to update it to 126 right now:
Motivation Takes the Form of Fabric
I received a new dress in the mail today, this one from Italy although it is a brand I regularly buy in the states. OMG when I hold in my gut it makes me look super thin and have such a nice shape. When I don't, well, the fabric is going to pull and stretch and bulge in the tummy and ruin the dress. So - more motivation to "DO THOSE ABS". With toning, I suspect that somewhere down around 121 I am going to be really really happy with this dress. Verrrry inspirational on a day where once again I am tempted to have sugar and cheat. I don't know how I managed to already be @ 1153, that's pretty much it for the day. Later, if I want something, I will pick from: a yogurt; carrot sticks, 1/2 a banana, a tomato, or a V8 juice.
No eating after 8PM tonight. I seriously am thinking about running string through all the cabinet handles and the fridge handle and tying nots so nothing will open up after 8PM. Chronic weaknesses call for drastic measures.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 14 May 2009 04:29 am |
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Give Me a Break
Sounds like everyone's pet is a bit under the weather. Hmmmm Pat and Nick I hope they are doing OK. Grass allergies can be rough on them this time of year for sure.
C-Dog is stable and is receiving the very best round the clock care that is available, being seen by some excellent vets. Hopefully tomorrow we will see some positive improvements.
I decided to not run today and give my leg a break (um perhaps that is a bad word choice, hmmmm?) Ironically, the problem is not the calf muscle strain on my right leg, which blissfully appears to have finally released me from its relentless grip; rather, now I have a shin and ankle strain on my left leg incurred from dancing Saturday night. It has cut short my workouts Sunday-Monday-Tuesday, and I really had been hoping for a 10-mile Super Sunday too. I need to consider the fact that I've had 3 injuries now from dancing and perhaps I have to tone it down a smidge because it is interfering with my running and training. A friend of mine once remarked "You hardly spend any time actually on the ground" when dancing. Perhaps it is my new boots...or my advancing age...because this never used to be a problem.
I finished my 30 minute toning routine (uppers/lowers/abs) and it is always spectacular the improvement it makes. I am getting much better at the waistline-targeting components of the abs workout and I think my waistline looks and feels as shapely now as it ever has. 
We are under a tornado watch. I was planning to get a 1-mile walk in before the t-storm hit but the thunder was rumbling, the lightning was flashing, the trees were bending in the gusts...so I turned it into a .75mile jog with the last .25 being a run because big fat raindrops started coming down. Nothing like the threat of sheeting rain to motivate your hide down the sidewalk a wee bit faster.
So the good news for the first day of my new diary is:
calorie goal met - check!
fitness goal met - check!
no eating after 8PM - check! (so far, but feeling on track)
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John Deere Doug
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Posted: 14 May 2009 10:02 am |
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| Hey Mol...Missed you!!!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 14 May 2009 03:31 pm |
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Why, thank you Doug!
Just hopped on quickly to note:
Yesterday's totals (with exercise) 1153IN/931Net. I managed to *not snack!!* and as a result, also experienced a more refreshing nights' sleep which is affording me better concentration and less anxiety today.
On track with a regular brekkie this morning, although my brain temporarily went "SCONE!" as I walked into the cafeteria at work. Well a few more days off the sugar and it will become much easier.
I was noticing my favorite suit really doesn't look as good as it should. The fact is, between weight loss and toning it kindof fits like a sack. I either need to go shopping or see if it can be tailored. In the basement I have a closet full of quality suits that don't fit ranging from 10-18. I said I would give it a year after losing the big weight to ensure that I didn't put them back on, and then would donate the clothes. Looks like I am just about to that milestone. Will put that on my to-do list, I have too many to-do's and not enough time, and am trying to identify some days to take off so I can get caught up around the house.
I'll be able to get the overnight update on C-Dog in 1.5 hours. Am hoping he is improving.
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mj36
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Posted: 15 May 2009 12:35 am |
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| Poor C-Dog, I will send him lots of prayers and positive vibes! I didn't even know you were on hiatus til I read that everyone has been missing you. I had computer issues and a hectic week overall and missed all the action! Probably for the best, I would have felt lost if you were away!! I think I fell into that same calorie pit as you last week, ate things I never usually crave and with total abandon. Here's to starting this week off better and reaching goals!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 15 May 2009 03:28 am |
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Nobody's Perfect
I wish I was perfect, but then I wouldn't be me.
Stuck to plan for brekkie and lunch.
 Got into the chocolate at work again to the tune of 350 calories.
Went for a run after work, goal of 5-miles in the gorgeous weather.
Left leg a real problem, only got in 1.25 total miles, had to stop.
Total calorie management: 1335IN/1242 Net.
I'm still hungry. I also have plans to hang @ #3 with delicious-to-look-at-26-year-old-Chris and I really want a Guinness. I wish I could go run to stick some calories back in the bank. I suppose toning is the next best option and would make my gut look better but I just feel like being lazy. Eh. I am gonna have a snack and a beer anyway.
I've been a bit on the Rocketshippy side today which explains why I have plans to go out on a 'school night'. Really it is all Michael's fault. I also broke my "no texting" rule today 3 times. I am finding it difficult to write my journal and not include some bits worth remembering. After all, we quickly forget what we ate last week - but I am pretty certain that I will never, ever, forget the text exchange I had with Michael today. Heh.
C-Dog appears to be improving, more so clinically/observationally than the tests are showing. Vet says if he gets no worse they will send him home tomorrow evening to continue to recover here.
Tomorrow is Friday. That deserves a few
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Beth
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Posted: 15 May 2009 12:47 pm |
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MM, I am so glad you are back. I missed you.
I hope C-dog has a good day and can come home. I hope both of you have a good weekend!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 15 May 2009 07:46 pm |
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Been Bad, Now Be Good.
No update on C-Dog, waiting (with increasing agitation) for vet to return my phone call.
Well, it is no surprise that I lost control of my goals and boundaries while on the Rocketship. I had a good time however, and let off some steam, which was needed. Damage report: snack before I went out, 5 Guinness, and a huge, huge, "snack" when I got home. Probably 2200 calories in all that and $65 poorer. But fun.
I stayed out later than planned, I was toying all week with taking the day off today and getting to bed @ 2:30 I decided to work from home in the morning and take the afternoon off. So here I am, comfortably on my couch. Clutching my giant mug of Starbucks. Catching up with a few friends and trying to plan my weekend. I need to get organized and I need to get my head back into writing the Book of Mol.
I need to run, but it is super humid and raining and its hard to get motivated to go out in that with my lungs feeling gummy. Plus my leg could still use some rest. So let me set some "realistic" goals for the rest of the day:
Book of Mol - as long as it takes - including, if needed, staying in tonight
Toning: done
Shower (LOL) done
600 Calories IN (on track)
To-do list; prioritize and schedule 3 major activities (Iceland/vacation should be 1)
Not drinking tonight if I do go out
---OK, that list should be easy---and enjoyable---A Good Day.
C-Dog Update: He's improving and should be discharged tomorrow to finish recovering at home. Good boy!
Mol Update: Yesterday's fantastic totals were 3515IN/3422Net. "Good gosh Woman! What did you do??!!" Today after my whopping sweet potato for dinner I will be @279. Going to do my toning now and after seeing those numbers, perhaps I will go for at least a walk in the rain.
 Did my toning (love it! love it! sexy waist huuuah!) and since the rain stopped I went ahead and went for a run/walk. 3.1M 2.25J/.85W because my left leg couldn't finish. 34:30ish. Nice, head-clearning, energizing workout. Also ran into my neighbor K who I've not seen in a long time, she was gushingly amazed at all the weight I lost, the running, the healthy eating, the divorce. It's still so nice to find that I have the ability to inspire people.
I'll probably take tomorrow off from running - a nice bike ride is an idea - and then aim for a Super Sunday of around 6-7 miles. That would be so sweet. I just looked up the forecast - "Abundant sunshine" and a high of 62. Isn't that lovely sounding? That meteorologist gets a nod of appreciation for his description. Leg, don't fail me, I can really use a nice looooooong work out!
Gotta get back on track with the To-Do's. I haven't cracked open the Book of Mol yet!  Shower first...no, a lovely bath, soak and start getting into the mindset...Last edited on 16 May 2009 02:55 am by mollymoo24
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mj36
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Posted: 16 May 2009 01:46 am |
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| Mol, so glad to hear that C-Dog is getting better. As for the snacks and the Guiness- been there myself lately when dealing with life's troubles. Stress has us all reverting to our comfort zone- even if that zone is not the best place for us to be! Sorry to hear your leg is troubling you too. I have found the joys of walking lately, to avoid some of that wear and tear on the joints. I don't want to jump back into full-on running and get an injury that totally derails me!! Been there, done that!
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 16 May 2009 02:13 pm |
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MollyMoo,
*Great* to have you back. I *like* the sexy waist. It's an underrated aspect of the female anatomy. It all starts with the waist. Glad to hear C-Dogs on the mend!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 16 May 2009 03:18 pm |
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Saturday morning. Large mug of Starbucks. Couch. Dappled Sunlight. Rested.
So, I was writing in the Book of Mol last night, trying to figure out my life's occupations and rather instead discovered that I have a Fear of Rejection which subconsciously colors much of how I interact with people. Among other things, I think it is the reason why I put so much effort into salvaging relationships with the least worthy of people, those who are not my true friends, trying to stay in the club circle and all that. The truth is, there are people who are "universally liked" and they are very rare and even they have people who don't like them. It gave me something to work on, and helped me refocus on the important people in my life, who love and accept me for who I am.
I ended up writing and exploring for an hour on the couch and my eyes started shutting. Get this: I fell asleep on the couch around 10PM. Seriously. And I woke up this morning just after 8AM. 10 hours of sleep. 10 hours? 10 HOURS? STRAIGHT? Seriously, I cannot remember the last time I got that much sleep without being sick. And since I know that sleep is essential for good balance...I am quite happy about it. I missed an event night @#2 but so what? They'll do it again in a month, and there will be plenty of other opportunities.
Yesterday's totals (hmmmm maybe this contributed to why I slept so much): 381IN/125NET. Niiiiicccce. Just had a salad for lunch, then a sweet potato (w/light syrup drizzles) and another salad for dinner. If I average the last 2 days' NET together it comes out to 1773, still on the high side but a lot more reasonable.
Today's Goals:
1300IN; Pasta for dinner in advance of Super Sunday: 1955IN I ate the whole thing of ravioli between lunch and dinner. 
GA Meetup 11AM: done
C-Dog come home (hopefully)!: done
More Book of Mol: planned
Iceland: er-looking less likely
ETA: Toning. Try doing abs routine twice. - sigh.
Have a great day everyone!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 16 May 2009 04:14 pm |
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Ha. I was just putting my calories in the counter and looking at the "frequency" of common foods view. I am pleased to say White Castle cheeseburgers have made it down next to last.  Ooops - sorry Doug - I know what happens to you every time I mention White Castle. Maintain control my friend.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 17 May 2009 03:40 am |
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There's Nothing Like Retail Therapy
Er. A bit spacey today. I got all that sleep but felt dizzy and a little out of it all day anyway. Was a bit unfocused and not very conversational at the GA meetup but it was good that I made an effort to see some newer friends I haven't seen in a while.
Then I picked up C-Dog and brought him home, he's not coughing much but also he is not showing any interest in doing anything, not even a walk, which I will chalk up to being tired. I have no less than 5 medications to administer which come in: powder/mix in with moist food; chewable tablets/eat with food; and 4 other pills which have to be given, two of which have to be cut/broken to size. Some are 1x per day, some are 2x per day. Steam in the closed bathroom 15 minutes - 3 times per day. I'm smart, but fuzzy today, and I'm having a pain figuring out a schedule. 
C-Dog was one really really sick doggie and needed round the clock care. However, I am really overwhelmed by the magnitude of the bills. Our first vet only charged me $230 for XRays and an office visit, then from Monday afternoon to Saturday Noon, 5 days, it was $4871 in the hospital. (The original estimate was $2-4K with a mid of $3K, they did inform me yesterday it was running over). And we have a follow up visit with more XRays Thursday. So over $5K altogether. There are so many other things which could be done with that kind of money, it seems so wasteful, and so many people are struggling right now financially...but when you are standing there in the middle of the vet office with your dog in an acute crisis, acutely ill yet still standing and walking and probably curable, it would be difficult to think of doing nothing, or putting him down.
So what does this have to do with retail therapy?
I've realized since I started dating again that my house does not exactly encourage guys to be attracted to me. What I mean is, I have entirely too much dog oriented artwork and knick knacks in the two most commonly used rooms in the house, the kitchen and the den. So I decided that the den, which is the room in which I hang and would spend time watching movies/tv or just hanging with a date, has to get a new feel.
So, this is where retail therapy comes in. What better cure for that sickening feeling from spending $5 grand in 5 days on your dog, then to just add a few hundred on top of that - small by comparison - and buy a few nice things for yourself? Yesterday, I found some great new rugs at Costco for the den, today at Bed Bath I bought some new pillows for the couch and they pull the colors together nicely. I moved the dog artwork into the kitchen, where the colors actually match much better. [I also, finally, hung my New Order concert poster and my pensive Crow piece in the front room. They've been propped up on things because I was afraid of screwing up and making holes in the plaster because that's an expensive proposition to fix. I mentioned this to Chris Thursday night and he encouraged me to just do it. He was right of course.] I also got a new porch mat to spruce up the front doorway, replacing one that was about 15 years old. Looks so much crisper.
Anyway I think the stress with C-Dog and feeling 'off' and generally overwhelmed is why I ended up going on a mini-Rocketship ride. Spending money. Eating an entire package of ravioli (at 2 sittings). Craving a beer. I am not going out tonight. I am not feeling right, I still feel tired, and I want to rest up and have a good day tomorrow. And I need to order groceries from Peapod. And I am in the mood to watch The Shining. Lights, Camera, Action.
Tomorrow, I will run. A 10-mile Super Sunday will burn off a lot of calories. Exercise erases mistakes.
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suenos
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Posted: 17 May 2009 06:00 am |
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Ahhh, brave girl watching the Shining alone at night....redrum...redrum...redrum I can't do it...heck I can barely watch scary stuff in a theatre full of people!
Sorry that your doggie has been so sick - five grand! - I'm pretty sure I would have started bawling - loudly - like a baby (umm, actually I did that with a 1k car repair bill once and the poor mechanic knocked a couple hundred off) but, yea, what are you going to do? It's one of those things you have to just do. I'm glad for you that you're in the financial position to do what has to be done for him. What exactly did the vet say was wrong?
Ohh, and I love me some house "make-overs"....I'd rather spend money on my house than pretty much anything else!
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zenobia
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Posted: 17 May 2009 06:15 am |
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oh mol! sounds like it's been quite the ride. i'm happy c-dog is home and probably much happier than he was at the vet.c-dog has been a good friend to you- i don't blame you fot wanting to take care of the pup! poor guy. i hope he's at 100% soon! give him lots of love ;)
totally agree with suenos. be thakful that you can pay for his vet bills
i'm happy you brought a diary here. i think it's a very good and healthy thing.
hope your super sunday is great. and yes, exercize is pretty much the magic eraser!
keep us posted on the pup, and you, of course
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Posted: 17 May 2009 11:46 pm |
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Hi Molly: Just got caught up on everything. I am glad the doggie is feeling better, but man that is a lot of pills to manage, sheesh! Vet bills suck!
Good luck with your Super Sunday. I have been spending a bunch of time reading outside and playing with my neighbors. I really like being outside.
Glad you started a new diary. I've thought of doing that myself, but I just keep tacking onto the old one, at least for now!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 17 May 2009 11:57 pm |
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Hey guys!
Well its been a busy day. I stayed up later than intended last night but got a few things done, watched The Shining (Redrum! Redrum!) and it was as chilling as ever. I know it was about 3:30 when I fell asleep because I was just getting ready to doze when I got a message from Chris @ 3:20. I didn't wake up until after 9 and then it took me a while to get into gear but I got my Peapod order all scheduled.
I made it to the woods around Noon and YESSSSS it was a Super Sunday!! 10.3 miles, probably 7-7.5 total jogging I've yet to calculate it all, and about 2:15 or so. Will come back with the official numbers later. That was sooooo awesome. And I wanted to be somewhere @ 2:30 and tried to use that to get my butt back to the car faster but I did my best. So I was late, to see a grade-school muscial production a friend from h.s. was directing. It was really neat, and something extremely satisfying to see this old friend in the role now, teaching kids, I mean, man, that used to be US. I haven't seen him in nearly 20 years and we'll have to get together another time to catch up, but so glad I went.
I haven't eaten yet today so 0IN. Since I went bananas on snacking after I posted last night I could essentially not eat all day and still have plenty of calories left over, I am afraid. Still I will likely have a small snack (yogurt) after my shower. Date night tonight with Michael, picking him up at 8, not sure what we are doing, possibly enjoying the firepit.
Have a great night everyone.
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 18 May 2009 12:16 am |
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Sorry C-dog was sick Mol, I hope he feels better soon! I'm glad you put some time into your place, but remember your not just doing this for dates, nobody spends more time at your house then you, and you deserve a palace! I hope your 10 miles goes well, it sounds exhausting in this heat!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 18 May 2009 04:31 am |
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Sudden
I was in the midst of trying on outfits, halfway thru makeup, when Michael called to cancel. Unfortunately there was a sudden death in the family, a relatively young uncle whom he liked and respected, and there are a lot of things about the circumstances which are hitting him pretty hard. I left right away to pick him up from work and dropped him home. There's nothing I can really do for him and he needs some alone time to just process.
Irony
Out of this evening, however, comes a short story of ironic comedy. See, tonight I finally "got my brave on" and dressed in the bustier/stockings/etc. which I bought in November at Victoria's Secret when I had a head full of D. [By the way, I discovered that women don't buy that kind of stuff for men, they buy it for themselves. ] Ooooh la la - it looked good and I knew Michael would like it, and I had to find just the right outfit under which to 'hide' it. All set, just putting on makeup and enjoying the anticipation of my little surprise when the phone rang. And I have to admit, even under the circumstances, while I was driving over, while I was waiting for him, while I was driving him home, I felt soooo sexy underneath it all and just couldn't believe the irony - I finally got brave enough to wear that, the occasion was right...and my date got cancelled.
Totals
Hey, it was a personal best time for a Super Sunday after I tallied things up. 2:09 and 10.3M 7.6J/2.7W best as I can tell. No wonder my legs ache! I am gonna go get some Ibuprofen. And another glass of water.
612IN/-251Net. Heh. Combining yesterdays 3070Net+today's-251Net=2819/2=1410 average over the past 2 days. Exercise, indeed, erases mistakes. And I even had a decent dinner tonight including...Hint of Lime Tostitos. Yum!
Scale: Has a certainly dehydrated, empty belly, nekkid scale reading of 123.5. Hoping tomorrow's Challenge weigh-in will be at 125, back where I started.
Well I am definitely tired and I am sure all that exercise and fresh air had a lot to do with it. I just took a phone call from a friend who broke her foot today who was supposed to fly halfway across the country for a job interview in 36 hours, and she cannot do the job until it would be fully healed. Bummer. Don't you wish you could just make things better for those you care about?
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Beth
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Posted: 18 May 2009 11:35 am |
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I'm so glad your doggie is better. I have three and they are like my children. Poor C-Dog. He's probably so tired and so worn out from the noise at the vet. I'll bet he is happy to be home! $5K is a lot. I would have done it even if I had to take out a loan.
I am envious of you for doing so well in losing your weight. I'm struggling right now. I really do look to your diary for inspiration. Thanks for coming back.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 18 May 2009 02:18 pm |
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Missing Component
I am going in to the office late today, so I can be here when Peapod arrives. I've spend a little time catching up on journals, and then decided that no MM Diary is complete without music! How is it that I haven't yet posted any links?? So, a few standard faves to get started. Now, THAT feels better.
Goldfrapp - Oooh La La http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3wEzPgXOaHg
Portishead - Sour Times http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=niIcxMuORco
Cocteau Twins - Carolyn's Fingers http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jax4uBQ2mbc
Underworld - Cowgirl (Live) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uK7QrVQa7vE
Dang, now I am up and dancing!! Starbucks and Underworld...What a great start to the work weekl
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 19 May 2009 02:00 am |
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Wow, busy busy busy day today but all good. Made a lot of progress, finally, on scheduling some to-do's which have been like planes circling overhead trying to land, and I've been the ATC without enough runways to land them on. Stressed about them.
Walker was very glad to see C-Dog again, he was the one who discovered him last Monday coughing up blood and took him to the vet. Eck. I am going to go get him a gift card tonight, his boss says he likes Starbucks. I agree with his taste.
I've cooked an obscene amount of food for dinner. Being single, I find its easier to just grill up a "mess" of chicken all at once, then keep some in the fridge for the week and freeze the rest - good for salads, sandwiches in addition to 'just chicken'. I also cooked up some pierogi which is dangerous because there are 12 in a package and my calorie count tonight will only let me eat 2 of them. I've got to remember next time to freeze them and only take out a few at a time to cook them. Cause lordy if I eat all 12, I am going to need more than a Super Sunday to erase THAT.
Anyway, the pre-dinner test weight was looking good, but I alwasy weigh after to make sure I am not dehydrated. So....will do that a bit later.
On the way home from work I stopped at the mall to shop for new suits. I grabbed about 6 suits and 3 dresses. Tried on the dresses first, liked 1 of the 3, go that for going out. Then I tried on the suits and something unexpected happened. Everything I grabbed was a 6P. None of them fit. Not one. I went out and got a 4P and it fit like a glove. OMG. I'M A SIZE 4 NOW WHOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO. I guess exercising does more than erase mistakes, it slims and trims too!!!
And so, I am being really good in spite of all this food, I put EVERYTHING in the calculator before I put it in my mouth and am at 1337IN. I am supposed to do toning tonight but jeepers I am really running short on time. OK yeah so get off the dang journal Mol!!!
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Posted: 19 May 2009 05:02 am |
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| WooHoo!!! Congrats on the size 4's!!!
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Posted: 19 May 2009 05:33 am |
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Thanks Once! You aren't doing to shabby there yourself, girlfriend!
Almost forgot to do my Challenge weigh-in! It is: 125.5.
Michael sounds a lot better tonight, got himself out of the house and spent much of the day walking around by the lake, by a university, apparently soaking in some old memories. I am going to take him to the wake Sunday, which is out in the boondocks, probably will drop him off, visit an old friend, then go meet him at the bbq following the wake. Irish. Generally, they know how to do a wake pretty well. I told him I was interested in going. I am also very interested to see how Michael handles himself in this situation, he's essentially lived his entire adult life estranged from most of his family.
We're also on for Saturday night, which among other things, is slated to include a joint public appearance @ #2. That has the potential to be even more interesting than the Irish wake. "Just full of fun, this weekend will be." (said with Yoda voice).
OK Mol, Bed! No snacking, and remember, good sleep is important for good balance.
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Posted: 19 May 2009 11:15 am |
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| Size 4? That sounds pretty good. And all that jogging? Great stuff. Btw, for someone who purports to by shy, you're pretty sociable, MM.
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Posted: 19 May 2009 02:00 pm |
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Congrats on the size 4 Mol! I can't even imagine what that must feel like to take a size 4 off the rack, and know it will fit!
You are right about the exercise though..........my scale hasn't been moving much, but I can see it in the mirror and in the fit of my clothes. I was going to get the measuring tape out this morning, but ran out of time. I want to leave work an hour early today, to go watch my grandson's soccer game, so I came in an hour early. Maybe tomorrow morning? If I didn't write my measurements down before I got back on track this winter, I always have my measurements at CURVES.
Hey Mol............I think I'm sending some 80's your way! Enjoy them!
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Posted: 19 May 2009 09:48 pm |
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Congrats on the size 4s!!!!!!!!!!  I reached that size once...for a whole 10 seconds maybe!  Continued success to you - you should be proud!
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Posted: 19 May 2009 10:44 pm |
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Wow, a Size 4! That's magnificent, Mol! Way to go!
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Posted: 20 May 2009 01:38 am |
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More Motion Motorway Magic
Thanks everyone! One of my "inspirees" at work is the CEO's secretary, she is looking pretty good herself these days but she actually got so excited when she saw me in my new suit today. It really does look nice.
Got a haircut, then 2 more suits when at the mall. I am excited that my nice black-with-white pinstripes suit is still being made, and I was able to get it in a 4. I had it in a 10 before and had to banish it to the closet some time ago. Need to color hair tonight or tomorrow, think I will end up leaving it til tomorrow.
So far 1237IN/881Net. That nice net is due to a 3.1M 2.75J/0.35W"ish" in 33:38 in the woods, PLUS my toning routine after I got home. I am still planning to have some chicken and a Guinness I think which will put me close to 1200Net.
C-Dog has figured out that I am hiding the pills in the luncheon meat and I've had to resort to peanut butter sandwiches. He actually threw up earlier today, we think the many meds are making his tum tum sick. Poor dog.
I have some work to do tonight, I committed to Steve, the compromise is I plan to start a fire in the yard and go work outside. So I have to run...
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Posted: 20 May 2009 04:31 am |
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Eating Rocketship
Holy cow. Anatomy of a binge.
Why didn't I stop after I had a salad for dinner and didn't feel hungry?
I went ahead and had 4 oz grilled chicken breast, and then instead of Guinness, some hint of lime tostitos which shouldn't even be in the house. Thing is, only 6 of those (large) chips constitutes a 'serving" of 150 calories, and 1 serving wasn't enough to satisfy my taste, so I had 2 and it took me over my calorie allotment. Then here's where it really went south, I went back in the house to put the chips away and went into the fridge and had some more chicken and a pierogi, i.e. better "quality" food to chase those empty tostitos calories. After that I stopped counting or caring. A short while later I dived into more chicken and another pierogi. Then rice cakes with peanut butter. Then I nearly polished off the entire bag of tostitos chips. 1000 calories in chips and the rest of the stuff was probably 800. All because I was trying not to have a Guinness. I should have had the freaking Guinness.
Wow, completely out of control. Yeah, well I am sure not hungry NOW. Betcha I am till up at 2AM also in spite of all my good exercise earlier. Well - there went ALL my cals IN for tomorrow, blown largely on crud.
Emotionally, I was having a bit of lonliness factor going on and realized I forgot to take my Wellbutrin today. So I am sure this played a factor also. Also broke my 'no texting' rule again twice. Darn me.
I am also resentful of having to work tonight, the motivation is not intrinsically there, I am motivated by no wanting to disappoint Steve, versus any intrinsic desire to do this project. I guess I've had the snot beat out of me for so long, that I don't know what difference this effort is really going to make in the end. Aw #%@&!, see, now I am starting to feel sorry for myself and getting emotional. Darn me.
And work is really stressing me out again. I am dealing with no less than 3 personnel issues at once and cannot get the h/r representative to move along so we can make an offer to a candidate. I have to eliminate someone's job and am meeting roadblocks with trying to get this person another gig within the company. I have some major freaking important meetings going on next week and talking to Steve about it today only focused my instensity on them even more. Darn me.
I just suck tonight. I fell into the pit.
This cannot possibly be the same woman who 24 hours prior, achieved a size 4 and just hours ago, did all that fitness exercise....can it?
So the recovery plan is as follows:
Wednesday: 500 Cals (626, not terrible)
Breakfast - Egg (80) done *on track*
Lunch - Good and green from salad bar, bit of tuna salad (200) done *on track* (171)
Dinner - Yogurt, salad, 2 slices of deli ham (220) (had a bit more than planned, darn tostitos, but I kept it from becoming a late night binge so gold star).
Also: I must do laundry (done, just needs put away), color my hair (done), and do my toning (done). A 1-2 mile walk wouldn't hurt either, if I can find the time.
Stay calm. Devote the entire working day toward progressing 3 topics: global role, process engineering, and HR issues. Now, I know I am setting myself up to fail because 1 of my direct reports already begged for 30 minutes on other issues and I had no choice but to say yes. Outside of that - be RUTHLESS MOL. Your TIME is worth GOLD! *only so-so on this objective*
Folllow the 'no initiating texting' rule. Better yet - no communication with any of the following tomorrow: Michael, Chris, Pitch, and L. Chris, Pitch, and L are no problem. Michael - well - it will do me good to put him aside for a day. *on track* L just called me on a couple of matters of business, but I kept it short. Michael texted me also on a matter of business and I shoved that thing right back in the bag.
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Posted: 20 May 2009 01:31 pm |
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Hang in there, Mol. I must confess I had a Dairy Queen sundae yesterday.
Are you a size 4? WOW!!!!!!!!!
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 20 May 2009 09:42 pm |
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| I had a bad night too Mol, hang in there!!!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 21 May 2009 07:57 am |
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Well, I wasn't going to write a separate journal entry tonight, primarily because I kept track of my recovery plan up above, and frankly, unusually, I don't have anything burning in my mind to say or make note of.
The fates have conspired to keep me long up past bedtime however. It is a strange night. My friend who had the job interview phoned here @ 11, I chatted way past my bedtime online, and now after I went to bed and couldn't sleep @ 1:15 Michael just called and 'oh, were you sleeping?' WTF he knows I work in the AM. I guess the no texting thing really works though, since I let it sit all day. I heart Terabyte. 
Totals 626IN/526Net because I did my toning! And I still think I am low on water but that 123.5 on the scale tonight looked good, that is equivalent to my previous low I believe. Just for entertainment I am going to do it again now just to see. Ah. 124.5. Still that is a good place to be. I was hovering up around 130 after all my birthday-related activities.
Got 2 compliments today on my favorite suit that I just got in a size 4. I got to talking with the one gal about my weight loss and she said "You are a 4? You look like a 2 or a zero".
So,
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Posted: 21 May 2009 03:09 pm |
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Mol wrote:
I got to talking with the one gal about my weight loss and she said "You are a 4? You look like a 2 or a zero".
That would be all that running/walking and toning showing up! Nice control yesterday, Mol!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 21 May 2009 04:30 pm |
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Hisgal wrote: Nice control yesterday, Mol!
Thanks Pat! Since I have a track record of failing miserably during times when I stay up too late, I am pleased with myself. I opened then shut the door on the refrigerator once and I did not allow myself to go rummaging. I also didn't open a bottle of red wine which I had a strong taste for. I ate a handful of grape tomatoes around midnight and the 'crunchy' sortof helped. : )
Breakfast was 350 today, stopped @ Starbucks next to C-Dogs' vet (he has a checkup/x-rays today) and I had one of those reduced fat turkey bacon sandwiches (whole wheat muffin, no-cholesterol egg, lo-fat cheese). I like it because its just like treating yourself to an Egg McMuffin, without the guilt or calories.
I am meeting a friend for lunch @ this Mexican place. My goal is to limit to 600 calories, which will put me @ 950 for the day. If I get in a run later that will still allow enough room for a decent dinner.
I am not exactly at maximum productivity today. Hoping to kick it into high gear after I go get another cup of coffee.
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Posted: 21 May 2009 08:45 pm |
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If Only
 Oops. Too much chips & salsa, and ate the entire fajita salad. At least I left the cheese on the plate but I did demolish the sour cream & guac. 1000-1100 calories. Got busy gabbing and not paying attention while I was munching. Guess I am done for the day. It was good though.
This friend J is exploring new chapters in her own life, although they are surrounding her kids being nearly adult, having more time flexibility to pursue new interests. Seeing times ahead in the not so distant future when she will step down from the school board and the volunteering and all that. So while our lives are very different in some respects, we are experiencing some of the same emotions; being happy to be at a point in our lives where we are young enough to have plenty of good time left, and old enough to have accumulated a lot of life's wisdom. It really is a satisfactory place to be in life and we both realize it.
I also filled her in on my latest guy news as a always do and the shopping trip I have planned for tomorrow afternoon. Having a good girlfriend is like having a gold mine, seriously, and I am grateful. These moments when I am at peace with the world are so rare, so precious, if only I could maintain this...if only....
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Posted: 22 May 2009 01:57 am |
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Hey Mol,
Sound like the rocket ship is under control. I like the 124.5, seems like a good place to be. Good idea editing your own entry to see how you did...I'll have to try that.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 22 May 2009 02:44 am |
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Eh, You Don't Want to Read This. Seriously
Well, this post drips with irony when you first read Jack's post above. Jack, good man, thanks for the support. Actually I am struggling mightily tonight to maintain control. The emotional rocketship is back in full force. 2078IN. It could be substantially worse and I am going to do the best that I can to avoid a catastrophic blowout.
I believe the lack of sleep set me up, and I was unfocused, albeit calm, most of the day. A little reflective about a post Michael made on networking site perhaps, but the real turning point came during my session with Dr. B, where, palms screwed into my eyeballs with concentration for 45 minutes, some deeply embedded truths rose up to the surface, unplanned, unrestrained, screaming to be understood, to be turned out to the light, examined, made sense of, and integrated, somehow, into the Mol that is to be. At the same time, a cautionary warning about Michael. And, as MJ also said, define what I need, what I am willing to give, and have a walk away point. This is in the emotional realm as well as the physical one, and I know it is Pure Truth. Know Mol first, then put Mol first. And - well - there's a lot I haven't figured out yet about Mol, and it leaves me vulnerable.
So, by the time I left her office my mind and emotions were working overtime, trying to solve the great riddles of my life, and then I got stuck in the holiday weekend traffic heading toward the city. Then, I picked up C-Dog from his checkup and got unexpectedly whacked for another $760. I nearly burst into tears right there. This is for a checkup which included X-Rays and 2 more weeks of antibiotics. They say likely he will need an additional round along with the X-Rays again when we go in for his next checkup. I don't know if I had known in the beginning that I would be clocking in over $6500 what I would have done. It's all been incremental, and now here I am, with this ridiculous sum looming, thinking of all the other things I want and need to do with that money, or people I could have helped, it just makes me sick.
So, then more traffic ensued and I intentionally took a congested route on surface streets so I could get to the little mom and pop pharmacy that carries the empty gelcaps I use to put the doggie pill portions in (ever try to measure and cut 3/4 of an oval pill my friends?) and after much exasperation, arrived there, only to be told they don't carry them any more. Frick. Altogether I was in traffic for about 2 hours and came home in such a state.
And I wanted a glass of wine so badly just to calm down, and I wasn't supposed to and I fought for a bit then gave in. I was so freaking agitated. Then when I went and got the wine, I also got some food and had a pretty decent dinner, even though I wasn't supposed to have any dinner or just a salad perhaps.
I think now, at long last, 4.5 hours after it first started and 2 hours after I got home, the grip of the agitation is starting to abate. The good news is, I fought like heck and didn't do anything crazy like drink 1/2 bottle of wine, or REALLY pig out, or decide to go out to #3 (it is Thursday, but I have an important meeting in the AM, that is helping to keep me in check), or start texting the guys or anything like that. I forced myself to fold and put away laundry and update my to-do list for tomorrow so I can hopefully start over.
In a little bit longer, I can probably manage to go for a little walk. I am actually still too dizzy, and buzzing from the rocketship, to be able to jog safely. Isn't this a trip? I wonder what percentage of the human population actually has this intensity of emotion, this agitation, like I get. It is so ironic that I was so calm in my prior post and then ka-WHAM.
Maybe this Wellbutrin has indeed run its course and the increased dosage is actually making things worse. Just a thought to keep in mind.
I'm tired now. This is good. Mol over and out.
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zenobia
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Posted: 22 May 2009 06:35 am |
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honey
sometimes a body needs fuel
your food and wine incedent was probably more beneficial than you think.
ok, and for as much as i am not a fan of corporate and all of that... i will send it in a p.m. it's about meds for your pup. hey, you gotta try everything, right?
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Posted: 22 May 2009 06:43 am |
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and i am super happy that you kept yourself in check :)
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 22 May 2009 01:45 pm |
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Failed
A little after 11PM I pigged out and ate everything in sight.
4 pierogi w/cream cheese, couple of slices of ham, 2 peanut butter sandwich halves, and tostitos. Another 1000 calories. So I figured I'd best try to not eat on Friday so I can get the crud out of my system and get my tummy flat so I look good for the weekend. What do I do? Had a frosted cake donut along with my egg & bacon strip for breakfast.
Ugh. How can I be this weak? Seriously? How lame I am being.
De-lame-ing
I am gonna go get my Munich Energy Mol on and turn this into a great day.  At least I think I slept hard.
It's only 1/2 day at the office and then YAY the 3-day weekend. Planning to do some more shopping this afternoon. I am really happy for the first time in oh say 15 years I feel like I am going to remain the same size for a long time, and can actually finish building a wardrobe where I know everything in it fits at any given time, and finish weeding out the stuff that doesn't fit right any more. For example, I am wearing a size 10 suit right now because it is the only black-on-black jacket/skirt I have right now, and it looks baggy. I need to fix that. Because good clothes make you feel good!
Industrial event night tonight, meeting up with Chris and Ian. Others will likely be there as well.
OK time to start kicking a-- and leaving all this noise and crud in the dust. W00t! I feel it coming on....
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 23 May 2009 01:40 am |
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All Is Right In the World Again, For A Bit
OK lets see. Today has been a pretty darn good day.
My 3 hour scheduled meeting this AM with Tormentor and a couple of our staff members went like a love-fest.  I guess he must be on his meds or something. Anyway, we accomplished what we needed in an hour and 10 minutes. I got out of the office 2 hours early, got in early at my dr. appointment, and so had extra time for shopping.
No, no, wait, that's Shopping!! Let me demonstrate appropriately my level of excitement. I got a new black dress for the wake Sunday, plain, understated, yet with a few rows of fluffy stuff on the bottom to give it a bit of a fashionable look without any glitz. Also got some unplanned jewelry (hey it was on sale, as was the dress), and oh...some 'other stuff' (ahem). I had my own personal fashion show when I got home and it was fun. I have to say, although I am not happy with my saggy skin on my abdomen, top of thighs and butt, my legs in a dress look really fantastic. Must be all the running. So you know what they say, you gotta work with what you have.
Anyway, today 1037IN including a glass of white wine I am enjoying right now. 768 Net. 3.1M, 2.8J/0.3W approx 32 (34.00-approx 2 mins to buy water). Plus, I should be getting in dancing later (industrial event nite, my favourite). Anyway, my workout pace is notably getting faster which is great! Today was a nice solid time, really (for me anyway), and I am chuffed about it. Its about time I started getting back to my pre-injury condition. I am feeling good that another 2 weeks and I will be ready to enter a real race/run!! Yes!
I love a 3-day holiday weekend. I am in such the best mood. Even Michael's morose state isn't getting me down. In fact, I am rather glad I have my own plans already for tonight.
Wishing everyone a great weekend! Mol.
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Beth
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Posted: 23 May 2009 01:07 pm |
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Posted: 23 May 2009 03:31 pm |
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Happy Memorial Day weekend to you Mol. Come on down. I am loading up the grill this weekend. Lots of pig on the barbie.Last edited on 24 May 2009 11:12 am by John Deere Doug
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 23 May 2009 07:37 pm |
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John Deere Doug wrote: Happy Memorial Day weekend to you Mol. Come on down. I am loading up the grill this weekend. Lots of pig on te barbie.
Oh boy Doug, does that sound fun! Enjoy!
Waking Up Past Noon
Well usually I would write an apres club post but I crashed after a long night of dancing and drinking. Went to the industrial event night and delicious-to-look-at-26-year-old-Chris and Ian were the ony 2 regular mates of mine present. "Shallow" Marc was there with a couple of girls he generally hangs with and didn't bother acknowledging my existence. This was perfectly fine with me as it saved me the bother of speaking to him. For added color, though, realize that the portion of the dance floor that I "own" and his "usual spot" at this club are in proximity of about 6 feet. Its stupid to not at least be cordial to people you are going to see regularly.
The place started getting busy around midnight and I got most of 1.5 hours of dancing in. The calories burned calculator doesn't have a category for Mol dancing. But I burned a lot. Which is good because over the course of the evening I consumed a lot too. I should know better than to drink vokda but it really is the one thing that doesn't slow me down when dancing.
Chris & Ian and migrated over to #2 about 2, stayed until about mmmmm 3:30?, met up with Carlton. Carlton was there with 2 girls for a bit, they were rather young, (but then again, isn't everyone these days)? For some reason people seemed happy to see me last night, ha, perhaps everyone was just in a great mood because of the long holiday weekend or something. K absolutely picked me up in the middle of the dance floor in a big hug which was remarkable considering he weighs about what I do, seriously. Aviator was super friendly and danced "with" me (again, weird) and oh, lets see, this dude Guido (ok, I know I am going to regret calling him that) was at both places, bought me a drink, and amusingly helped himself to a few kisses of my collarbone while I was talking to Chris. It was fun.
Chris gave me a lift home and we ended up playing records and drinking the rest of that bottle of white wine. And. I am starting to think if I had a nickel for every time a guy told me 'I think you're a cool chick, but..." eh. I am getting tired of being the cool chick. Heh. At least we didn't fool around and then I get the cool chick speech. That would really suck. I don't know what time he left, but it was definitely getting very light out, probably around 5/5:30. Immediately thereafter, I crashed. I woke up this AM and Depeche Mode World In My Eyes - 12" was still spinning on the right turntable, that way for a good 6 hours, you know, how the needle plays to the inside of the record and just keeps going round and round...
So...NOW my large mug of Starbucks has finished brewing and I am very happy to have that first sip to begin waking up. I've already had a large plate of pasta with some chicken. My left ankle strain resurfaced while dancing last night (dancing injury again, sigh) so I won't be running today, I will probably just do my toning. Supposed to have date night with Michael tonight, although he has been rather morose about his uncle and with the wake tomorrow, he's probably not going to be up for much. Have to call him in a bit. After I wake up. 
Nine Inch Nails - Piggy http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4NOYCzRzZIs
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 23 May 2009 11:27 pm |
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Crime and Punishment
I think it is worthwhile to note that still feel like crud from last night. That I've wasted an entire vacation day off and blew off plans to do some volunteering entirely. I don't even feel like seeing Michael, I don't feel like toning, or getting dressed or doing to sit in some stupid bar or restaurant or even talking. The tradeoffs I make - the fun of the dancing and clubbing and drinking and letting loose - and how much it takes out of me in terms of sleep disruption, the drinking, loss of quality time, unbalancing effects...there's no way to reconcile the two, really, its like opposing forces in the universe.
I'd like to just rest, stay in, and try to write some more in the book of Mol tonight. Perhaps I will keep my visit with Michael very short.
OK I admit it. I am procrastinating. Entirely. I wish there was a magical pill I could take to feel better right now. The coffee just didn't cut it. Sigh. No motivation. None.
Someone kick me in the butt, please.
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